01/07/07

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I don’t exactly remember when I first became interested in woman’s clothing, but it was at a very early age. I would guess about 5 or 6. I do, however, remember my first experience. I found a single nylon stocking that my mother had thrown away because of a run. It was seamed and I was captivated by the way it felt. I remember hiding it in the side compartment of our dining room cabinet. It was large and chock full of junk. I would reach my hand into the middle of the junk until I felt the welcome softness of the nylon. As it turns out, I would never get that sensation out of my head.

My mother would hang her slips on a hook in the corner of her closet and would throw her worn panties and bras on the floor right beneath them. Of course it was only a matter of time before I was sneaking into her room to sample some of her wardrobe. This was during the very early part of the '60's and stockings, garter belts and girdles, high stiletto heels and full slips were the order of the day. What a glamorous era! I then went on to a life of "crime". My friend had sisters which gave me an opportunity to acquire my own wardrobe. I would select items from the dirty laundry and stuff them down my pants. Sometimes I would be able to go into their rooms and take panties, bras, girdles or stockings from their dresser drawers. I did get caught dressed once by my parents, and while I don't remember the circumstances, I do remember the lecture that I received. My mother asked me if I wanted to be a girl. To this day I remember the intensity of the desire I had to say 'YES' but I was so afraid of the outcome. My father was a very big and occasionally brutal man. This would NEVER fly with him. I look back today and wonder what I would be like if I had started taking hormones way back then. I also remember fantasizing about going to bed and waking up a girl. I would do this frequently.

I have built up stunning wardrobes, purged, built up again... you know the story, I'm sure. I probably threw out enough to fund a complete sex change (with laser treatments included)!

Today I have been on herbal hormones  (see my Links page) for over six years. I am way too large to appear feminine but my body has responded to the herbs and I am developing breasts and my figure is starting to round out slightly. I love the gradual changes but I am starting to become a little worried that I may have to start hiding the changes at work etc. But what a great problem to have! About one month ago I started the Flat2Fem program and it has REALLY made a difference. I was stalled for the last few years so I tried other products including the Pueraria (B2Alpha / Bustup) with no appreciable results. I was even able to get a pair of Brava Domes (from eBay for $10) and tried the pumping routine. Girls, I gotta tell you, this program will develop your bust! I modified the massage technique to include crossing my hands (left hand to right breast - right hand to left breast) which makes the massage a little less strenuous. I follow everything to the letter and I am soooooo excited!!! Give the program a serious try...

I am married to a wonderful woman who just recently found out about my dressing. So far, she has taken the news better than I expected. I am hoping that she will eventually come to accept the BOTH of us...